This is a powerful and vulnerable personal essay about the experience of having an eating disorder and what that means from the inside. You offer so much insight and empathy as well as support and validation, and importantly you cover the experience over a lifetime rather than focusing on one specific 'phase' which most stories of this nature do. In doing so you shed light on what lies behind the smiles of many readers who are adults and have struggled for decades unseen. It's a memorable and thought provoking piece of writing thank you for sharing it with Modern Women.